FAITH

FAITH

When the year started i told myself it'll be a good year and that as usual it would be a year filled with happiness and lessons to be learnt. Its only February and I've learnt so much already. To whoever who takes the time out of their lives to read this i want you to know that YES i did have a girlfriend whom i was very happy with. But it ended the week after being together for a month. I was pretty angry after the breakup (who wouldn't be angry? ) but i'm in a much better place now and i couldn't be more thankful for my good friend kenta who actually bothered to take me out and make sure i was filling myself with anger and negativity after what the breakup. So thank you brother for being there for me. 

But that wasn't the big reason i was feeling so down. The reason was i lost my cousins.It all started when i felt like i was the cousin that could be replaced. Everybody was always 
known for their individual personality but for me i was only known for being the negative one,the emo one and the one that had a big mouth. If only they knew how much I've learnt to shut up and listen more these days and that i have a big heart as well. When the breakup happened, NOT A SINGLE ONE of them bothered to call and put aside what had happened and just talk. That got me thinking. Do they even want me to be a part of their lives anymore? Do they even notice my existence? Was i really right about being replaceable?  But all of that made me realise how strong i was and that i was going to be 'okay'. I've come to embrace being alone now and that i cant force people to love me for who i am but i can always just be myself. Its only the mid of february and so much has happened. I am grateful for the people who bothered to text me and make sure i was fine. Thank you. Me starting a blog was just a way for me to express myself because a human being can only suppress his emotions for so long before he loses his mind.So thank you to whoever is reading this for doing so,i know its nothing amazing but this is who i am and i will continue to write on here more.

SHASI