Like every other kid he was never so concerned
when it came to the concept of love. To him love meant liking a girl, holding
hands and kisses. Such a simple and
innocent grasp of the emotion that is love. But little did he know how much the
emotion love would affect his life. But the first time he actually fell in love
was in primary 3.
It was a newly built school so it was
everybody’s first day at school in the new school. He gave his father a and his
mother a big hug before leaving them at the entrance of the school. He loved
school. Comparing to who his now he would rather have stayed home than go to
school his younger self was far from it and he accepted it. He walked in with a
smile on his face and an eagerness to hopefully see his friends from his
previous school. A huge new school and it had 8 floors of mysteries awaiting
him. He was directed by a teacher to head up the staircase and to make his way
the school hall on level three and as made his way he did. He started seeing
other students making friends even before reaching the hall. But he still
hadn’t seen any one he knew. The hall. A huge two floored hall with dark shiny
wooden floors and a massive stage for performances to be held and a second
floor with a gallery that showed the whole grandeur of the hall. He was
impressed and in awe of the size. He saw a board with the class he was assigned
to and he took a seat on the floor behind another kid who was too busy talking
to another kid in front of him. He took his bag off and placed it in front of
him and just started gazing at the beauty of the massive hall. And then looked
to his right to see and everything froze in that moment . He saw a girl with a
tan skin tone ,hair tied in a ponytail and a smile that would make the angels
in heaven envious of. She was looking directly at him and it took him a good
twenty seconds before realising how awkward that was. He looked at the ground
smiling and it was a new feeling to him. He felt immense happiness and yet he
was still in awe at how one person made him feel this happiness without saying
a word and with just a smile. She made him smile and be it for a good reason or
bad, that smiled stayed with him from that day on. But being the timid and
coward he was for years in school he never spoke to her because they were in
different classes but of the same year. When he did speak to her though,it was
the last year of primary school for them and he had only 3 months left to speak
to a girl whom he loved from the moment he saw her. It was one of those cliché
things to do. At almost every table he sat at every year and every lesson he’d
use a marker and scribble her name on the table. She was a reason he looked
forward to going to school every day. So at this point he realised that the
upcoming inter house games were coming.
Like phaeton the son of helios who dared to dream he took the chance and
played at every event he could take part in to have her notice him. And then
came his time. A simple game of handball but this one was so different than any
other game as he was in the mixed gender team with her. Every chance he got he
gave the ball to her and even saying her name out before passing the ball to
her and she’d do the same. Hearing her say his name gave his so much happiness
and made him be more determined to win the event. And win the event was what he
did. Their house placed first and he was given the award of most valuable
player but all that didn’t matter as now she looked at him and applauded his
victory. After years they finally got to speak. He was so nervous yet he kept
his calm and was so direct and clear in his conversation with her. But the end
of the year came and even though all those years he never told her how he felt
he still felt content that he was able to feel that emotion and he left it all
in those years. Fast forward to a time where he was a man and he is broken
emotionally and love is an emotion he hold so dear to his heart. He wants
nothing more than to be able to look at another person in their eyes and see
their love reflected back the way he does.
He stands tall and even has the nickname
gentle giant from his mother but all he yearns for is to be loved by another
person who isn’t connected to him by blood but by the emotion love was created
for. He had been through the most purest form of love to the most twisted type
of love. But he withstood so much heartbreak and yet he lives another day
hoping that his time will come. Around him in his life he sees his friends
falling in love and getting married and he prays to god each night that he will
be blessed enough to find that kind of love. He has gone through so much that
he isn’t afraid anymore of being heartbroken as he only knows that failure is
just an early attempt at success. Faith as his shield and love as his sword in
life he carries on with the pain in hopes he will one day be truly complete.
But till that day comes, he will always be himself and he will always stay true
to his beliefs. She made him find his smile ,a smile he’d wear for the rest of
his life.
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